Day 1: The First 10 Songs

So I shuffled one of my Spotify playlists and these were the ten songs that played.

Look What You Made Me Do by Taylor Swift

I know Taylor Swift has gotten a lot of criticism about this song that she just released a few weeks ago, but honestly it's kind of an empowering song for me. Since I'm still figuring out how to be single again, this song speaks to me as a way of showing that even in heartbreak, nothing stops me from achieving my goals. Yes, the song may sound like it's saying "Hey, look what you made me do after you dumped me" in a revenge-like way, but for me it's "Hey, you might have broken my heart, but that's not stopping me from doing what I want to do."

Mad Hatter by Melanie Martinez

Again, this song makes me feel the same about Look What You Made Me Do. But this makes me agree that the best people are crazy. Doing crazy things makes you more of a risk taker. Like riding horses to some people is crazy (aka IHSA is crazy cause we ride a strange horse).

Strip That Down by Liam Payne

I really don't know how I feel about this song. I like it cause it is an energizing song. I love dancing to it when it comes on at The Royal when I go out with my roommate and our friends.

Church Bells by Carrie Underwood

I honestly love this song. I love the beat it has. I sing this so loud in the car when I am driving to work. It's another good energizing song. I personally just love every song that Carrie Underwood releases.

Gangsta by Kehlani

This song makes me feel so powerful inside. I guess it makes me feel that whoever I end up with will give me that emotional high that I get when in a relationship, but that the new high will be even better even though right now, I don't really think so.

New Rules by Dua Lipa

This is my current every day jam because it literally speaks me. I've made new rules for myself since my ex and I broke up. But then again, there are feelings that I will always feel for him, but I can't let it show anymore right now. I do what the lyrics say "rehearse and repeat."

Sorry Not Sorry by Demi Lovato

This is again me right now. I'm trying to live my life to the fullest and I am honestly sorry but not sorry about how it makes my ex feel. Is that bad to feel and act that way? I don't know, but I'm sure my girlfriends would tell me no that it's not bad to be like that right now. I love this song. It is one of my pre-downtown jams on Friday nights or Saturday nights.

Wolves by Kanye West

To me, this song is very calming for my mind because of how relaxing the beat is. I don't really know how the song makes me feel other than calm though.

Mrs. Potato Head by Melanie Martinez

This song makes me feel perfect because it speaks about how changing our appearance through surgery and diet pills, it still doesn't make us perfect. By being perfect is being loved by our friends, family and significant others for who we truly are; without all the make-up, shoes and nice clothes, we are perfect in our sweat pants and messy buns.

Too Much To Ask by Niall Horan

Niall really knows how to speak my feelins with this song. This song is one of my favorites right now, but it does pull me deep in the deep hole I'm digging myself out. I lay at night asking myself questions like the one's he asks in his song. "My shadow is dancing without his shadow for the first time" is the one lyric that sticks with me.